it seems that following my intuition is like following Mapquest directions in cantonese
perhaps not that dramatic
but it does feel foreign to me
questions like, is this what it's supposed to feel like?
am I supposed to be overtaken with emotion?
do I find something mysterious and magical after I do that action intuition has requested?
I want it to happen overnight
I want it to be a seamless transition from following my head to following the pulse of life that radiates through me and guides me
I was told to do something I wouldn't have typically done
(on a day where I was sleep deprived, over fed, and lethargic)
and that something was take a walk
simple enough
as soon as I acknowledge that snap directive my body wouldn't allow me to rest any longer
I walked the beach as the sun started to set, the sky handing over its shades of blue to dawn pinks and purples
walking along, feeling the wind rap against my face
the thunder of the waves barreling and landing upon shore
the sting of a man of war on my feet
as I waited and pondered what profound message I would receive as a reward for following intuition's orders, I became anxious
there's nothing
I don't hear anything
is something wrong with me?
then I look over to a thicket of naupaka and see a perfect ledge
inviting me to come take a seat
and take a breath
for a breath my mind went blank
I can't report any ego shattering, life altering moment of clarity
but I felt quiet for a second
and was reminded that the the wind wouldn't exist if I wasn't there in its path to experience it
the wind experiences me too
I discovered that each time I listen I may not be learning something new
but being reminded of something I've known all along
corny as hell, but true.
so, day 2 of asking my intuition what it wants me to do
and today we went for a walk.
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